Togetherness

In the beginning when I first discovered that my husband had a 'problem' with pornography I felt so very very alone.  Who could I possibly tell?  The shame and stigma surrounding this addiction kept my suffering in the shadows and over the years I allowed the darkness eat away at my soul and self worth a little at a time. Thanks to the bravery and courage of so many others, I no longer feel alone in this journey, which can at times be filled with the soul crushing weight of despair.  These days I am filled with hope and am beginning to heal.  This past weekend I was blessed to meet so many courageous, hope filled, and inspiring women at a very special gathering called The Togetherness Project.    Together we shared our stories, our tears, and our light of hope. I am a so inspired by the stories of faith and courage from these women that have gone through experiences so similar to my own.  Who new this sad tale of addiction was SO common? I certainly didn't!  

During the conference I was surprised by the lack of emotion I felt, probably due to the distraction of having a 7month old baby to tend the whole day.  On the drive home and as I got ready for bed that night the tears just started flowing.  At first I couldn't figure out why I was crying.  Part of me was sad to say goodbye to so many new and dear friends that I had come to know and love in such a short time.  Throughout day I had been thinking how sad it was that so many people had been through such traumatizing experiences, but then I realized that I am one of them.  Maybe I should say that I re-realized since I obviously already knew that we shared the reality of having a spouse with a sexual addiction, but sometimes it's easier to push that to the back of my mind.  As I processed all of this I also  realized that if I am one of these traumatized women, I also  have the same resilience and strength.  I am not alone!  I am on this journey together with such an amazing sisterhood.  We can do hard things, and we can heal together!  

Thank you Jacy and everyone who put so much time, effort and love into creating this life changing gathering. Thank you!